i created this story a few days ago, so i thought... i just wanted to share this..
care to read?
Author’s note:
The characters are not mine. As I always say, as much as I want to own them I can’t for they belong to each other and I wouldn’t allow myself to ruin such a wonderful *ehem* relationship or whatever it is that you wish to call it. *Cle grabbing Kang ta and Hye Sung~ currently locking them in her closet* v
This story’s based on my recent heartache… I couldn’t find a vent so I made this up. Well… umm… if ever that person reads this, no never mind…
to my dear readers sorry if i cant think of a title yet so i'll just settle for this one...
can somebody make me a poster?
Futile Escape
With a heavy sigh I threw myself on the couch. This day has been so tiring, I didn’t know how I manage to get through everything. Our concert’s fast approaching and the fans are expecting a lot from our comeback. I didn’t want to disappoint them in anyway so I tried my best to come up with new moves, rehearsing our songs and making sure that everything was in place before the concert. I need a break. This is all too much for a day.
I closed my eyes hoping to get a bit of a shut eye but then my phone rang, I groaned as I answered the phone.
“Hello?”
“Pil Gyo!”
My body jolted upon recognizing the speaker, “Chi-… Kang ta.” I felt my heartbeat go on to a fast rate. “Hey…” I managed.
I heard him laugh, he asked me if I just woke up or I am with somebody and that he’s disturbing me. My eyebrows arched at the last question, “Where did you ever have the idea of me having a woman at this point of my life?”
“Sungie, it’s been quite a long while since you had one.” He was laughing as he spoke, “Do you want me to arrange someone for you?” he asked mischievously.
“Unlike you Taya I do want things to go naturally. I don’t settle for some cheap se--” Chil Hyun didn’t let me finish he spoke as if he didn’t care about what I was going to say. I clutched the pillow beside me, seeking comfort from the lifeless thing as my heart pained even more. It took a while for me to respond to him; a few seconds later, I told him the first thing that came in to my mind. “So, how are things going with you?” With as glee Chil Hyun babbled on about his day, he was talking about his date with Soo Young earlier this day and with that causing every bit of me to ache. I didn’t know why I was feeling this pain inside of me all I know is that everything about him makes me in this state of discomfort. I never felt like this before with Chil Hyun and it was just recently when I have developed this. Am I jealous? No… What’s wrong with me? As much as I want to answer my query I was left with an unknowing silence.
Silence.
With that sudden realization I sensed that he stopped talking. Silence isn’t our thing. Thinking quickly I told him, “Are you together now?” He didn’t answer, all I can hear was his steady breathing. “Taya?”
“You’re sad.” His voice was coated with concern. “Come on tell me.” he urged.
I had to smile, he knew me too well. “I am ok. Nothing’s wrong. I am just tired.”
“No you’re not.” He insisted. “What is it that bothers you?” I was tempted to answer him, Chil Hyun it is you— I am like this because of you. “Pil Gyo whatever it is buddy I am here for you got that?” I nodded. He shifted again to another topic; I know he’s trying hard to change my mood but I am sorry Chil Hyun your efforts are vain. He continued showering me with comfort that I don’t even need. I wanted him to stop but something in me was urging to listen more to him. I suddenly felt scared that we may never be talking like this sooner or later. I lost it. Why am I not making any sense anymore? Why the heck am I being paranoid for? Too much questions are crowded in my head and I can’t even answer any of them. I asked myself. He’s my best friend what’s wrong with me? All best friends care about each other. I clutched the pillow tighter to my chest as a realization came in me.
I felt cold, and my fear doubled. Chil Hyun was still doing his best friendly duties on the other end of the line. Every second of it was agonizing; his every word was causing my heart to break. I couldn’t take anymore of it… “Hey Taya I have to go.” I told him. I was greeted with another pause, I felt that he wanted to say something else but I hindered him from doing it. “Look man maybe some other time there’s so much in my head I don’t think I am gonna be a great phone buddy for today.”
“Do you want me to come over?” he offered.
“No I am going to be fine.”
“But Pil Gyo.”
“No.”
“At least let me be with you. Maybe I can help.” Chil Hyun you can’t help me, whatever you do or say will only make things worst for me. For you are the one causing all this…“Thanks for the concern Chil Hyun but I really do have to settle this on my own.” Not waiting for his reply, I cancelled his call and slumped back on the couch.
I know I am getting into something; this is driving me insane with all the thoughts that were freely flowing in me. I am acquiring something forbidden and that is loving him. Loving him so much that it aches. Loving him too much that I want to own him and be with him.
Damn this is not healthy. I am scared of what tomorrow would bring me. I am afraid of the pain that will come. I am afraid…How am I going to handle this?
My over fatigued body reacted to my emotions I was too tired to control myself… I felt tears cascade down on my cheeks as sleep slowly succumbs me.
END
*Cle dodging some rotten tomatoes*
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