Clé de Lune

this just happened a while ago... but i thought that maybe it's ok to share....

so here... damn i feel so sad...

I was just about to enter school as I noticed something on the pavement. Curious, because it was causing the traffic, I stopped and looked around. There was a shoe and a trail of blood in my view, as if on cue I glanced forward and there saw a boy lying on the pavement, I immediately noticed the uniform that he was wearing even though it was ripped, he’s a high school student from our university. I froze on my spot and looked closely. The boy was bleeding, his shirt was torn and a cut was clearly visible on his stomach. People were just looking at him and not even doing anything to help… there were nuns and even medicine students none of them made an effort to check on the boy and that itself was disappointing, but I thought that maybe they were just as shocked as me to even move a muscle so I understood them… I remember saying “bat di nyo buhatin?” (why won’t you carry him?) to men near the boy to bring him to the hospital but I guess my voice was too frail for them to hear or even notice me for I was a few meters away until a woman came running and shouted that they should carry the boy in the hospital. They did eventually.

I entered the gate with them; everyone was running away I don’t know why but at that moment there were only the 4 of us running on the university entrance. I was following behind them and they stopped maybe to balance the boy or something and then I clearly saw the cuts, bruises and blood that was covering his body… his head was bleeding… that was all that I can remember as I them found myself running towards my building and hugging the first person that I know. I didn’t remember anything; my classmates told me that I was crying so hard and that I was shaking too much. They couldn’t do anything to calm me down so they just hugged me and held my hand.

Lunch time came and I immediately went to the hospital to check on the boy, I was anxious on how he is so I asked the people there. The guard told me that it was not only the boy who was injured, his younger sister was also hit by…I don’t know… a car or maybe it was a bus. I found out that the younger sibling was stable and the boy was currently in the operating room… but I am glad to know that he’s alive and I know he’s going be better… I do pray that everything would turn out fine for him and his sister whoever they are…

another day, another new expirience. while i was cooking tikoy ehehehe~ then mom called she told us about the fire in sta.mesa and how near it is to our store. O_O gawd what the heck is going on with the world?? waaa but i am glad that it's all over and nothing bad happened to mom.

hmmm... to think that i was supposed to be with her today. but then sabi ni mom: "sige anak wag ka na muna pumunta, takot ka pa." grabe talk about timing~ hmm thanks mom *hugs*

hmmmm... so that's about it for today i must get back to my errr cold tikoy~~ eekkk and my mountain of homeworks. *sigh*

see you all soon.

i just watched show tank and omfg.... TONY AHN

hmmmm... medyo muka siyang errrr ano dyan pero if you see him in his performance you'll go like this: O_O
ack~ nanginig ang mga laman ko when he sang.
eeekkkk~~ i wonder what made me react that way i am not like that naman~ weeeee~~~~ ah anyway siguro CHOTI-ness nanaman toh~

moving on, i've been trying to save money to buy a couple of CDs but all my efforts are vain~ i havent saved any mooolllaaahhh~
ahuhuhuuhuhuhuhu~~ T_T
pano kaya to?

errr...so anyway sige next time na lang wala lang akong magawa kaya nagpost ako~ whehehehehehe~~
sig byebye~~

my classmates just left our house a couple of minutes ago~ *phew* peace and quite at last *joke* i was supposed to be watching the phantom of the opera today but for some reason i forgot my money at home i was left with a few change enough for me to go home~~!! >__< sheeeshhhh....

next topic, Kai was asking me to update this thing~ whehehe so here... *blink* i wonder what else to put...
hmmmmm..... errrrrrrr.... ummmm... oh yeah pics... sige yun na lang~ahahaha~~ KAI~~~ WUB~~!!! *jumps on kai*

i have a unusual liking for candles nowadays... hmmmm... beautiful arent they... (O_O) <--cle




Cle musing:
"i wonder kung tuloy ang bitchfest... josko Tikki ano na bang plano mo? O_O

"i wonder what sophia's doing right now.."

"nahalata na kaya ng crush ko na crush ko siya???" O_o

"eeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkk"

"i must go back to read my fics and O_o i have to translate sumthin~" *spanish gggrrrrr*

"sheeeeshhh i gotta study~~"

kakaiba~ medyo sinipag ata akong magpost sa aking dakilang tabulas ngayon~ weeee~~!!!
anyway ano bang meron?

ok, it's friday and phew~! i am so glad that this week's finally over. i can finally get my much awaited sleep~~~~ whoooo!!! wala lang...
ey wanna DL a song? eheheh since mabait ako ngayon *joke* here's an wma of kelly clarkson's since you've been gone~http://s3.youshareit.com/download.php?b5f0b1b1f759c4864a9435da9487ba21
right click po~~.. yun lang :D
sige tulog muna ko~~!!!

OMFG OMFG~~!! MY 2 FAVORITE AUTHORS ACTUALLY REVIEWED MY STORY~!!!

artshoey
Thanks for sharing. i liked it! it's a nice one shot, and i like stories where not everything is resolved concisely in the end cuz dat's real. stylin'. lol.

kangta sounds like a real sweetie, and i like that very much!
good luck with your own life, k!

Rewritten
very awesome, and let me tell you, i know exactly how hyesung feels, and exactly how you feel... primarily because i go through it everday myself

it makes me wanna TT______TT

nakakataba lang talaga ng puso~ i didnt expect that they would even read my not so good of a story
grabe i was hyperventilating when i saw their names on the reply list

waaaaa~~ ok na ko~ natutuwa ako~~!!! TT_____TT

I have been bombarded with loads of things this past few days. sheesh i am so stressed talaga these days physical and emotionally saka eto pa... i am also worrying and feeling depressed for my friends. nahihirapan na ko pero i cant stop thinking about them kasi mahal ko sila and i give a damn about them. *mushy ba?*

so where to start? teka lang.... parang mali.... >___< malamang hindi ko pwedeng ilathala to sa buong mundo no.. (josko baliw na ata tong may ari ng blog na to >__< ) so sige wag ko na lang isulat dito baka kasi lam nyo na... sus~ dagdag pa ang school dito so sobrang dami nito, ewan ko na nga kung pano pa ako nagsusurvive nito eeeeekkkkkk~~~!!!

but the thing is... sa dami non i feel so down talaga... sa friends ko... na wala ako sa mga tabi nila nung ngyari ang mga yon. hay here i am again getting so emotional once again. tapos eto pa, there's this person na i care about pero sinasaktan lang nya ko. gusto ko ng nga umiwas pero hindi ko kaya kasi importante nga talaga siya sa kin. nararamdaman ko naman na that person cares pero para sa kin kulang pa yon. oo siguro nga i am expecting a lot from that person... haaay ewan. good thing kausap ko si reichie non... kung nagkataon na wala akong nakausap maloloka ata ako.

rachel thank you, basta ito. even though she left you, you'll still have me and i'll always be there for you.

ok tama na ang drama~!!!!!
eto masaya~!!
kanina nanalo kami sa volleball sa PE~!! yey!!!!! WALA NA AKONG WRITEN EXAM SA PE~~!!! *talon*
hmmm.... 1.25 ako sa nihongo uno sana pero nag-absent ako ng ilang araw ke sensei hindi ata natuwa~~ TT__TT ahahaha pero ok na yun, yung ibang subjects ok naman din weeee ang saya.
tapos nung valentines ka-date ko si Delru at si Ally~~ ahahahahhahaa~~~!! josko...~ tama na nga naloloka na ko dito~!! weeeeee!!!

the movie is just so superb.
natutulala ako... O_O

i wasnt supposed to watch this but Maricon dragged me ~ ( *sigh* now there goes my shopping spree) but after the movie i was glad she did ehehehe~!

lets see now, movie review anyone?
this film is obviously religion orriented, but screw that it's hell of a frackin good movie. every darn peso i spend was worth it. i leared quite a lot from the movie and i somehow got some things connected with our theology class. (sir chard maraming salamat po! astig ka talaga)
i really love the symbolisms in the movie. (well i dont know about what others think but i saw a lot of them while watching the film) the blood and water part was just so O_O... relizations kept on flowing in my mind as i watch the scene. (shemai calling na itoh~) pero grabe talaga yung mga symbolisms dun makes me wonder...

*Cle glances at clock*
>___< 11:46pm na. i better go to sleep, maybe i'll continue this review someother time... *yawn*
sige yun muna.

oo...
alam kong hindi pwede.
pero sa katigasan ng ulo ko, nagpupumilit ako.
nasaktan ako.
pero tinuloy ko parin dahil umaasa ako na sana mag-bago ang isip mo at mapansin mo.
manhid ka nga lang talaga.
wala na... sayang lang.
tama na.
ayoko na masaktan pa kaya pipilitin ko ang sarili ko na kalimutan ka.
sana magawa ko.
pero bago ang lahat, bago kita tuluyan ng kalimutan sana malaman mo na minahal kita.

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ano ba ito ang drama ko naman >___< *cle poking self* eeeeekk~~!!!

pero sana nga talaga diba... ayoko na kasing masaktan. ang hirap kasing maranasan yung binabalewala ka... tama na nga siguro to. maybe hindi naman talaga kami dapat magkakanito, sayang naman kasi... at ayoko siyang mawala sa akin.

oo alam ko naguguluhan kayo sa mga sinasabi ko pero sana intindihin nyo na lang ako. nasasaktan ako at hindi ko alam yung pano ito takasan o pano ko ito gagawan ng paraan para matapos.

it's been three months and i cant believe i kept it all. it was just recently that i actually admitted to someone what's been bugging me. and with that i would like to thank those people who listened and helped me get through this ordeal.

delru --> you automatically came in to mind when i felt that i needed to talk to someone to talk to about this matter. you're the first one who knew this and i am glad that you're the first person who ever knew. thanks. do know that i love you so much.

rachel --> it's been quite a while. i thought that i am over that stage but after this i guess not. i guess i am really in denial, thanks for making me realize that. i'll see you soon. i love you too.

ally --> i am so sorry if i only told you this yesterday. thanks for bitting me that helped a lot. i am so sorry for the phone call, i guess your dad would be after my neck. (lol) thanks it helped me feel better. i love you ok.

kai --> your drama queen came back to life. thanks for welcoming her back in.

i guess it would be unfair for you guys if i would spare you one last detail... so here...

i hurt my self last night... worry not i didnt cut my self or anything, the wall and i are errrr "friends" so ummm my hands ache like hell, i dont even know how i managed to type all this. my left arm's bruised. *ally thanks for the bite it added up ^^v* and yeah.. that's about it. but you know... afterwards.. i felt really pathetic. damn what forced me on to doing that >___<. i just wish that i could get over this immediately. i cant stand it.

now i am fearing that i would hate that person and i dont want that to happen.

*sigh*

sheesh i just got home from the convention and i still have to study for a very long quiz tom in theo >__<.

lets see now the convention.... it was cool, i like the presentation and the gadgets that they've presented *i want a wireless notebook~!* anyway i was in the middle of pasay and i was at the verge of panicking for my friends and i have NO IDEA on how the heck are we gonna get home O_o then out of god knows where, my bestfriend suddenly shows up~ i was like O_O what the...OMG WE'RE REALLY MEANT TO BE~~!!! TT____TT weeeeeeee~~ so errrrr that explains how i got home today (blah blah shut up Cle)

anyway... more blah blah~

i've been out of focus lately and with that i've been forgetting some of my responsibilities. *sigh* i am starting to fail on a certain subject. grrrr... i am thinking of dropping it but it's too late and the only option that i have is that i should get atleast 88 above to get to the uno standing or maybe a dos.... >__< grrrrrr..... Cle AJA~ kaya mo toh~~!! concentrate~~!! I CAN DO THIS~!!! OHHHH YYYYYEEEAAAAHHHHH~~!!!

oh and another thing...
eeeerrrrrr~~ i am starting to move on~!!weeeee~~
(sana nga)
*sigh*

Cle singing:
"i am moving on without you~~...."
*dances around*
*thunder clouds forming*

eerrrr... wooops~

T____T
i've got so many things to do ahuhuuuhu~!
wanna see how many they are?
here's a quick list
*planetarium (mind you it's so damn big i have no idea how am i going to bring that in school >__<)
*english research paper/ term paper
*theology project
*filipino journal
*tour101B (itinerary and written report)
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......
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and i am gonna submit them all next week.... T________T

and to top it all of... i saw this pic.. waaaaa this made me cry I WANNA MEET MY SHINHWA TOO... Lucky you Sandara Park lucky you...
*Cle goes and jumps off a clif*


anyway i better get back to my work~ i dont want them to pile up more T___T